PTX PainTrain Has Disband

My side of this story is one that may not be the same as the other officers of our guild but I will be accurate to my accounts.

The PTX Vision
My vision of PTX began with the like minded vision of Shadowlord Pain. A guild with structured organization, confidence and commitment to it’s members with democracy. I began this vision with a foundation of philosophy that a guild should be run like a business. Once that cares about its employees above all else. If those basic principals are held in intact, your guild will go far. I’ve developed an officer core with a high sense of responsibility and level headed decision making, one I knew would be capable of running a guild without a guild leader. With that in mind, please understand where I’m going with this.

The Ascension Alliance
We founded and formed the Ascension Alliance with Team Legecy, just the two guilds. Our system of operations, the rules behind it and the follow through matched that of any top guild. After a while, we realized that Freelancer’s vision of community and alliance were not matching with respect to the community and how we felt the alliance should be portrayed and the direction it was going. Communication was not transparent and bureaucracy was ripe within the Alliance. In short, PTX felt that we didn’t want to continue being the opposing party to Team Legacy’s agenda so we left the Ascension Alliance.

The Choices
Our choices were to take up a previous offer to join the Titan Alliance because they knew how we felt about the issues within Ascension and they felt we were the only approachable guild in the Ascension Alliance. We also had the choice to stay on Northern Shiverpeaks and show we wouldn’t desert the population there, start our own alliance and continue there. We also had the choice to go out on our own, onto a new server, low pop, where would go invite those we wanted and build something fresh.

The Direction We Chose
As a democratic guild, we left it to the officers to vote what direction we were going to go. We first voted to leave the Ascension Alliance. I voted against it unless the Titan Alliance would indeed court us. We had voted to leave the server to start fresh. I voted against it, telling the officers we could pick up the pieces on Northern Shiverpeaks and show that community we wouldn't leave them hanging. Many officers felt that NSP was Freelancers followers. Ones that would not be loyal to an alliance and it’s operations or the community we would attempt to form. I disagree. We chose to go to this empty server (Devona's Rest) and start a new community, attract great guilds and begin our own build up.

The Sacrifice
I felt that if I stepped down from Guild Leader, leaving Shadowlord Pain to lead so I could focus on the server community and it’s alliance as a neutral entity, it would show commitment to our cause. I did not want to take on this challenge. I wanted to remain the guild leader but I felt if we were going to have any success, it had to be done. Doing this I had full confidence that if things didn't work out, I would be able to retain my position as the guild leader. 11 days later, with minimal luck keeping guild interested in the alliance and low pop, PTX decides to pull the plug and have the member body vote on going to a new server or stay. I told the PTX officers, if we left, I would not go with them out of anger for the decision they made that I was against in the first place, coming to Devona’s Rest.

The Mutiny
Once the decision by the member body was made to move to a higher pop server, I asked to assume my responsibility as Guild Leader of PTX. Shadowlord Pain denied that motion and consulted the officer core based on a rule that I made about “members” leaving the guild, would have to start from the beginning as a new member. They voted me in as a member but Shadowlord Pain said he would never guarantee I would be guild leader again.

I felt in many ways that Shadowlord Pain used the opportunity and guild rules to his advantage to become the soul guild leader of PTX. A guild personally, I feel I built as he was away a lot of the time. I felt the officer core, while conflicted with this decision, were upholding a rule I made.

Pulling The Plug On PTX
After so many countless days, hours and months of sacrifice to build a top tiered guild, which anyone can tell you we were, I felt betrayed. After stepping down on behalf of the guild to create something from nothing. Not even wanting to do it, but doing it because I knew it had to be done, I felt stabbed in the back. The decision was not going to be overturned. PTX’s guidance and culture was going to shift without me in it’s plans. I felt I had no choice but to stop something I started.

My Apologies
I want to tell ALL of the members of PainTrain I’m sorry. I could have easily allowed the guild to continue on with me as a casual member or without me all together. The guild would have done fine, afterall I built it with that in mind. But I felt the immense about of time, planning, finances and emotions I put into the guild was completely fireballed. So many people in our guild put effort into making it what it was. For that, I cannot redeem. All of my members will find good homes. If PTX wishes to pickup where I cut them off, thats on them.

The Logistics
All Paypal donations are been refunded that were not already spent on guild expenses to those who donated. All guild BANK donations need to be handled through Shadowlord Pain. I’m not a thief.

In that, I wish all of you the best of luck. Hit me up ingame if you wish under Zandra. Please don’t troll, flame or ask me much more. I hope this is good enough.

I hope you all enjoy the rest of Guild Wars 2

Zander